Every place I go

There I am... now I am working so hard at watching my own behavior, and it feel sthat although I have done a really good job at changing negative behavior, I still have a ways to go.... So enlightenment is to remove it from your every day life... well. I can be so much more enlightened still... This is actually a real nice thought, because I ahve felt better and better each and every day.... yet with what I still consider quite a bit of behavior that needs to be adjusted still. Hmm so I guess that means things will continue to get better and better... ya man: )

So watching myslef and staying in the now.. that is my recent goals, and it has not been as easy as I thought it would be..... the staying in the now anyways....and in the watching, my patterened behavior I have found trying to creep back in... silly past behavior. I am now a little more conscious of it, and am warking to adjust it...

For example.. no meditation the last couple of days... and the feeling that I just can't get done what I need to ( not enough time) and rushing around instead of just relaxing and enjoying all that is around me....

So I will now ( even though I have decided that I do not have the time to: ) go meditate, and read a little,, ( I did write here even though I felt I do not have the time to)... ok meditation will help.... I will refocus, and somehow my life is about to get sooo much better... and relaxing.... by doing this... and reconnecting with the here and now... and takign tiime to see all the beauty.. instead of what is on the other side of that....

So much to write.. so much to say.. so much to learn.. so many areas that I am growing in... oh my it feels good....

Jim