see the beauty

It is all around you, and overlooked far more than it deserves. And I mean every aspect and thing in life. It is all so beautiful, whether it be the little dandelion that has broken thru onto the fairway on the golf course, or the tall trees or mountains around you... and what about the ones you are with, why the routine of day in and day out, slow down stop take the time to connect with the people in your world and say something nice to them... help them to feel good, no matter what ugliness you feel is surrounding you, do not give it the life it feels it must have. Believe that if you connect with the beauty that is out there and know as you start the day, and carry on as you take each step that it will be a great day, and that things get better and better.

The month of May was a huge success for me in terms of realizing how wonderful each day could be, I did not go to the dreamy things that I wished in life instead I would keep myself in the now and appreciated for more than I ever had before in my life each and every day.

Now... as something as a shocker has occurred, and the thoughts of unfairness tries to penetrate my being, I feel it is more important than ever to truly believe in the universe. I do know that things have always worked out, and I do know that I have the life people dream of.... yet for some reason the universe ( which I feel also means the lord ) feels that I needed to have this huge change ( understand how easy it would be to feel that it is not necessary, and if the universe would have asked me I would have declined I am sure ) but instead I know that even though right here right now the universe has some huge plans and reasons for it ( my real request to the universe is to have the plans come rapidly please ) and if anything when I meditate on this, I feel that even though I felt I was doing a good thing being grateful each day as I wrote out my things on the paper, it was still surface pseudo things to be thankful for. I thought I was doing so good, when I had far more to be thankful for then I ever realized. And right now I want and wait for it to somehow get back to the beauty it was... but when I think of that I also think that I still have so much to be thankful for... even though it feels like an atomic bomb has been dropped on me, and that I am for some reason a safe target, I need to instead be thankful deeply for all I have. I am healthy and I am truly thankful for that... because I am healthy I will be able to strongly make it thru this. I have people that love me I am grateful for that. I have the ability to deeply believe and trust.

Final note for today... I feel that the universe has done this to me so I can help so many others in the future. I will be able to relate with others in pain, I had stuffed pain during my life, and with therapy I have learned that was not right. And what a perfect time for me to write, and how perfect for me to demonstrate how the universe works with something like this happening to me, and showing how you can still believe. So if you as you are reading this are thinking I do not understand the pains and yukkiness you have in your life, and if I did I would understand. Instead I am saying I understand you have and are in pain... but that is your focus, you need to take small steps all day long to connect and to believe. You need to keep doing gratitude's all day long, it is ok to pray alot, and make the prayer be affirmations. In the bible where it says whatever ye pray for ye shall receive... be specific and clear and let the universe do its thing. Please let the universe help you, it wants to....

I realize how much more I have the ability to love... I did not know how much love I had in my heart, that is another good thing that has come from this. I look forward to demonstrating that in the future.

Jim