relax and allow

It seems at times that my past is so ingrained that the old patterns come to the surface without me ever realizing it.. but then in meditation and reflection, I am able to see how it is easy to break free by realizing and seeing myself....especially the self destructive behavior.... being able to see it makes it so easy to change....

So if you can view and see with your minds eye... and label it... how easy it is to adjust....shifters that is what we need to be armed with at all times...I have been hearing and seeing how some people have allowed others around them to bother them.....with harmful chat... this is nothing new, but are we looking and listening for it... instead should we be cued in and looking to hear the good stuff? Or if you are a leader do you allow that stuff to simply flow right thru you, and not give it any value?

I think that i have to go to the old adage that it is what you are giving off... and therefor what you receive...

ok my chat is slightly different this am.... I have done my routine... but do not feel it has truly sunk down in deep as it should this am... I will need to make sure i write again later today. Important things to share though... is that I have tried to focus on the future and create beauty in it that I aim towards and achieve... and where it used to be so easy, I just keep coming back to today and realize how happy I am now and how wonderful each and every day is. I do believe that I have achieved far more happiness in each and every day that was over looked before, and I feel I have always been happy go lucky.

There are some things in my day this am ( court for my loved one) that before I would have gone into the courtroom and felt the evil presence... today I look forward to going in and not allowing any of this to effect me... I feel I have a great chance at only seeing and feeling beauty.... there must be some very beautiful things in there, and my goal today is to be the light for those who need it.... there is beauty out there every place... and those that are so looking for it day in and day out ( whether they realize it or not) and today the lamp will be well lit.. and we shall see how much I can get it to shine on those around me.

I want to keep writing, but feel it is more important to write later on....

Jim